Healing Sunbeams Podcast

Raised in Mormonism? Asking questions, seeking answers? Discovering new ideas? Deconstructing doctrine? Trying to maintain a sense of spirituality through it all? Let’s break it down and get raw, real and vulnerable about this journey of faith that was never meant to be easy, but we were always told it would be worth it....AND shake things UP! Reaching inward to the Sunbeam child inside of you to acknowledge, process, reframe, heal and expand into greater consciousness. Are you ready?

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EP07 Feeling the Joy

Saturday Apr 06, 2024

Saturday Apr 06, 2024

Growing up in the LDS church, it was very clearly laid out to us what was to bring us true joy and happiness in our lives, as well as in the lives of our family. If everyone stayed on the faithful, covenant path, you were okay, and that is where the joy is - especially throughout eternity!  And so...if we sway from the path - are we programmed to believe that we cannot have joy, or there must be something wrong with us or our families? Maybe that we don't deserve joy outside of the gospel? I would take a quick response to that question and say - yes, yes, yes, we were programmed to believe just that!
So how do we find a new path to joy? How can we let go of the emotional heaviness that comes with choosing joy in new places? Or maybe joy doesn't even come from something new. Maybe it comes from our connecting to ourselves and the little things around us that brought us joy in the past, or we were taught were not possible to bring us joy. 
In this episode I get out of my studio and into the outdoors of my home, (forgive the cell phone microphone), to share with you what a present moment of joy can look like. You can totally do this too! You have joy within you, allow yourself to bring it up, and feel it all!
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EP06 Heavenly Father vs Santa

Tuesday Feb 27, 2024

Tuesday Feb 27, 2024

Do you have a picture in your mind of what Heavenly Father looks like (in real life)? Is he tall, has white hair, a white beard...and lives in the clouds? Did He see you when you were sleeping, and know when you were awake, and even knew the thoughts you were thinking, yes even the bad ones....? Hmmm, does this remind you of another ruling man in the sky from your childhood? (do you see where I'm going with this?). Let's get real about the similarities between Heavenly Father vs Santa Claus and take a real, deep look at who, what or how God shows up for you.
Liam Neeson/Santa clip:
https://youtu.be/VqG621-drmk?si=lWBD1u4olJMOHRQH
President Dallin H. Oaks "Kingdom Of Glory", Oct 2023 General Conference talk:
https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2023/10/17oaks?lang=eng
For more information and connection:
Visit  https://www.healingsunbeams.com/
Instagram @healingsunbeams, @courtneystull
Music credit: lemonmusicstudio (pixabay.com)

EP05 The Earth Life Marathon

Monday Nov 06, 2023

Monday Nov 06, 2023

The pathway of our earth life may not look exactly as we planned, or as we expected, or as the Church taught us it was supposed to look like. Floundering around in dark waters, we were always taught, will drown us! But will it? You are not alone, Sunbeams! There are many of us trying to make sense of this faith expansion, and it doesn't have to look like we are "off the path" - but more so that we are choosing to navigate the journey at our own pace, and in our own way. Can you drop the judgement you have of what the earth life journey is supposed to look like? 
 
For more information and connection:
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Music credit: lemonmusicstudio (pixabay.com)

EP04 Belonging

Friday Sep 22, 2023

Friday Sep 22, 2023

Do you feel triggered just stepping foot inside of an LDS Church building? As Mormon children we were given such an experience of consistency, familiarity and ward family. Taking steps through the faith expansion, that connection or belonging begins to fall away and what once brought us meaning and peace as a child, now creates triggers and emotions. It's ok to miss it! It's ok to feel sentimental! And it's also ok to give yourself space from it. What did belonging once feel like to you? What does it feel like now? 
 
For more information and connection:
Visit  https://www.healingsunbeams.com/
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Music credit: lemonmusicstudio (pixabay.com)

EP03 Coffee Talk

Monday Sep 11, 2023

Monday Sep 11, 2023

Drinking hot drinks (coffee and tea) have been considered breaking a commandment in the Mormon church since 1833. How did this affect you back when you were a Sunbeam child learning about the Word of Wisdom? How long did you carry this belief and felt the guilt, shame, or even judgment of others when that brown, aroma filled, taboo was around? What about now? Grab your Starbucks and sit with me as we have a little "coffee talk" and remember the primary lessons that created judgment and worry over this drink that, come on, you have to admit - is delicious and for some people - beneficial to their overall health and happy mood! 
References: W of W, Caffeine and Hypocrisy
Official Word of Wisdom Revelation/Commandment
 
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Monday Sep 11, 2023

Hey friends! I'm Courtney Stull, and in this episode I am sharing a little more about me and my story, getting real and vulnerable about how being raised in the Mormon church really shaped me, and pointed me to choose life situations that may not have always been the best for my soul and personal well being. How it all finally hit the fan and I had my UN-conversion moment. When enough was enough.  When I realized that the still small voice - is actually my own! Let's talk about how embracing this experience as a faith expansion instead of a crisis can give you the empowered strength to process and authentically take care of you. 
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Music credit: lemonmusicstudio (pixabay.com)

Monday Sep 11, 2023

Are you navigating the unstable waters outside of the confines of the Mormon fishing boat? Maybe you are just barely getting your feet wet? Or have all the thoughts and emotions running through your mind just thinking about the possibility of jumping overboard?
Welcome to the Healing Sunbeams podcast! In this first episode, join me for this brief introduction to what this podcast is all about, who I am, and get a feel for the raw, real conversations I am willing to have.  I got you. And I see you. Let's do this!
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music credit: lemonmusicstudio "Sunshine" (pixabay.com)
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